You know how people always joke about their bodies falling apart when they hit milestone years? Well, now I know why. It’s totally true. (Okay, not really — if I really had to pick a point when my body failed me it would be when I got CFS, which was when I was 16. Still, I find this situation ironic.)
I went to the doctor a couple of weeks ago to get general blood tests done so I could save money on my insurance next year. Most of the tests came back normal, but one test didn’t — my HgA1c level was high. For those of you not in the know (I wasn’t) this indicates that my blood sugar over the last few months has been high. This is not entirely surprising to me. My family has a history of diabetes, and I’ve had some of the warning signs (excessive thirst and rapid weight loss (thanks Wiz)), plus getting more tired the longer I wait to eat (I’ve always known I had minor blood sugar issues), but I’ve had my blood sugar tested by doctors a couple of times since then and it was always normal (including being normal in this latest round of blood tests), and I even bought a blood glucose monitor and tested my blood sugar myself for a while, and it was normal, so I stopped worrying. But apparently I need to start again.
I’m still not entirely sure I have diabetes. The doctor I went to said I do, and wrote me a prescription. He’s also an idiot (when I told him I don’t know what caused my CFS, he said of course I know what caused it, I just don’t know who — I told him that was mono). He didn’t ask for more tests or send me to a specialist, both things that should be done. From what I’ve read, high HgA1c levels are not an officially recognized method of diabetes diagnosis (though they’re very indicative), and can actually be caused by a couple of other things (though those are much less likely, and with the symptoms I’ve had, diabetes is definitely the most likely cause). There are also multiple types of diabetes which are treated differently, so it’s kind of important to know what type of diabetes you have. So I need to go to a specialist and get properly diagnosed and then figure out where to go from there.
But, since I spent the last week worrying about my kids’ cavities and never got around to calling the endocrinologist, and now it’s the weekend again and I can’t, I decided to do something really useful — blather about it on my blog. Because that will help, right? Yeah, not really, but we’ve been way too on-topic (feminism, Mormonism, bloggernacle) around here lately, and what would we do without a good dose of randomness? (Okay, I probably don’t want you to answer that, since I’m responsible for most of the randomness.)
Honestly, in some ways I actually want the diagnosis. If some of the medical issues I’ve had lately (notably almost constant headaches and even worse tiredness than normal) are caused by hyperglycemia, then if I get my blood sugar under control those will get better, which would be awesome. My biggest concern/fear centers, of course, around food. I really don’t like cooking. And honestly, by the time it comes to make the next meal I’m usually to tired to really make a decent meal. I’m a big fan of meals that I can grab and eat with little to no work. Unfortunately, almost all of these (most notably cereal) are straight carbs, which is pretty much a no-no if I’m diabetic. Which means even more cooking than I’m managing now, and figuring out new things to cook that I can eat and my children can and will eat. Yeah right. Oh, and did I mention that my husband had high cholesterol levels? Yeah, I’m pretty sure there isn’t anything we can all eat any more. The kids have mostly survived on hot dogs this week, while I ate meat and veggies from Outback’s gluten free menu (which my husband brought home one night after I called him crying about how I had no non-carb foods to eat in our entire house). I have no idea what my husband ate. I’m pretty sure the diet is unsustainable, but I don’t have another one to replace it with.
So yeah. I’m (probably) diabetic. I have no idea what to do with that. Except blog, because hey, you all wanted to know, right?