The last two months of my life have seen a complete transformation. My experiment with on-line dating led to a relationship this summer, and recently, in an unexpected turn of events, my significant other and I got engaged. It’s been a crazy whirlwind, but in a completely wonderful way. And despite my efforts to distance myself from God, I have seen His hand in my life.
About a month and a half ago, “Be Still My Soul” was the opening hymn in Relief Society. At first, the call to “stillness” resonated with me, as I was feeling anxiety about the big decisions I was in the process of figuring out. But as I began to pay closer attention to the words of the hymn, they spoke to me on a deeper level. As I sang about bearing a “cross of grief or pain,” my thoughts turned to my profound despair of the past five years. And I realized that even through the confusion and pain, the Lord has remained faithful. Now He has finally blessed me with “love’s purest joys.”
While I still don’t have answers to all my questions, I am at peace with how things have played out in my life. I needed my previous heartache to teach me some important lessons and to prepare me for my current relationship, and although the path has most definitely been “thorny,” I have reached a “joyful end.” Actually, I’ve reached a joyful beginning.
- 11 September 2010