I haven’t been around as much the past little while because I’ve been on the job market, moving, and preparing for a new job. No, I haven’t finished my dissertation. I’m currently rethinking my life plans, and I have found a job as a secondary school English teacher, which I will start in a couple weeks (which means I probably continue to be scarce for the next month or two as I adjust to the new job).
It’s all kind of strange because I’ve wanted to be an English professor since high school. But the past year or so, that dream has been slowly fading, though I didn’t recognize it until I had a sudden moment of realization a couple months ago. I expected that leaving behind what I’ve been planning for so many years would bring more sadness. There have been a few moments the past month (as I’ve had conversations with my friends engaged in intense research or dissertation writing or who are preparing to go on the academic job market) when I’ve remembered why I chose academia as a path in the first place and what I am potentially giving up (I haven’t permanently left my graduate program, but if I love teaching high school as much as I expect to, I won’t pursue college teaching). And there has been a twinge of sadness in these moments. But then I think about how excited I am to go and teach these high school students at a school that I am really excited to teach at, and it all fades into the background. Of course, this might change once I actually start teaching, but right now, I’m thinking there’s a good chance this will be my permanent career, and that makes me happy.
So, anyway, I guess I’m interested in hearing from others who have made major course changes in their lives. I think it happens to most people at some point. If you’ve changed your life plan, what prompted it? How have things worked out for you? Are you happier? Was God involved?
As for me, I do think God was involved. He didn’t hit me over the head like He often does (I typically need to be hit over the head in order to change my mind about big decisions in my life). Instead, I was slowly and subtly guided into a position where everything just fell into place. I believe God is watching over me, and that is a comfort.
- 20 August 2007